It's not about how you feel

I must admit, I haven't felt much like laughing the past couple of days...I have some stuff going on that I can't control. I'm a little bit of a control freak, I like knowing what's going to happen, I like being secure, I'm not adventurous, I don't know like change...you get the picture. So not being able to "fix" my circumstances, really opens the door for depression & hopelessness to try to come in.

Hopeless really isn't an option for me as a Christian. To be without hope, means to buy into the lie that God can't or won't help me. I'm not willing to believe that. I know He'll help me in His way and in His time, but one thing is for sure, He is always working in my life for my good!

However, I have this image in my mind that describes how I feel. It's a picture of me walking across a tight rope. I'm stuck in the middle, where I've come away from my past, but I haven't reached my future destiny. I'm stuck in the middle on this thin little wire, trying to balance everything. Meanwhile, I feel like every now & then, the enemy will blow really hard and a wind will come try to knock me off of this trapeze act I'm living. That was how I felt when I woke up this morning.

Thank goodness the Bible has instructed us that we are to walk by faith and not by sight. I take this to mean that we are to trust God and not our emotions or senses (what we see, hear or feel). I may feel hopeless, but I choose to believe the Word of God. I am claiming that Jesus is the umbrella I hold in my hand, that helps me keep my balance. He is the person standing on the other side, cheering me on and bidding me to come, even reaching out His hand to grab mine when I get close enough. But most importantly, He is the net underneath me, in case I feel like I'm going to fall. He won't let me hit the ground, He will catch me, and hold me in His loving arms, and never let me go. Psalm 91:11-12 "For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. In their hands they shall bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone."

So, now that I've confessed how I felt, opened the Word of God, sang some songs of praise "to Him who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all I could ever ask or think..." (Eph. 3:20), I feel His presence and joy! Thank you Lord.