Monday, October 19, 2009

It's not about how you feel

I must admit, I haven't felt much like laughing the past couple of days...I have some stuff going on that I can't control. I'm a little bit of a control freak, I like knowing what's going to happen, I like being secure, I'm not adventurous, I don't know like get the picture. So not being able to "fix" my circumstances, really opens the door for depression & hopelessness to try to come in.

Hopeless really isn't an option for me as a Christian. To be without hope, means to buy into the lie that God can't or won't help me. I'm not willing to believe that. I know He'll help me in His way and in His time, but one thing is for sure, He is always working in my life for my good!

However, I have this image in my mind that describes how I feel. It's a picture of me walking across a tight rope. I'm stuck in the middle, where I've come away from my past, but I haven't reached my future destiny. I'm stuck in the middle on this thin little wire, trying to balance everything. Meanwhile, I feel like every now & then, the enemy will blow really hard and a wind will come try to knock me off of this trapeze act I'm living. That was how I felt when I woke up this morning.

Thank goodness the Bible has instructed us that we are to walk by faith and not by sight. I take this to mean that we are to trust God and not our emotions or senses (what we see, hear or feel). I may feel hopeless, but I choose to believe the Word of God. I am claiming that Jesus is the umbrella I hold in my hand, that helps me keep my balance. He is the person standing on the other side, cheering me on and bidding me to come, even reaching out His hand to grab mine when I get close enough. But most importantly, He is the net underneath me, in case I feel like I'm going to fall. He won't let me hit the ground, He will catch me, and hold me in His loving arms, and never let me go. Psalm 91:11-12 "For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. In their hands they shall bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone."

So, now that I've confessed how I felt, opened the Word of God, sang some songs of praise "to Him who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all I could ever ask or think..." (Eph. 3:20), I feel His presence and joy! Thank you Lord.


  1. Enjoyed your post, and the video was hilarious! So true!

  2. Even if you fall, with our faith and believe in the One Who is truly the Refuge, He would be the invisible net to catch you when you fall...God bless you sister and may you have a week, feeling joyful and strong in the Lord's mighty power!

  3. This was awesome! You encouraged yourself right into the joy of the Lord! Praise God! What a great post Angie!

  4. I am a control freak too. So I totally understand where you are coming from. Praise God that He is ultimately in control and that when we give Him totally control He works everything for our good. He is faithful!

  5. Great post. I'm learning that I have no control over much of anything and giving it to God seems to be working. ha! He DOES know what He's talking about!

    Love the video. =0)

  6. Oh girl, I like to be in control too. I also like to be "prepared" and so worry about what may happen so that I think about what I'll do if it does happen, lol! I am learning to trust Him better though.

    You know how you go to the doctor and sit out in the waiting room until he calls your name?

    Well, I like to think of difficult times as being in the waiting room with God. You are perfectly safe, but you don't quite know when He's going to call your name and take you out of it.

    So you just must wait patiently, trusting that He will eventually call your name in His time.

  7. I love that Jesus brings the balance. I like predicting B will come after A. Though life isn't always that predictable.

    ((((hugs)))) You are a wonderful Mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend!